Dd started school full time this September. I went shopping this morning after dropping her, felt so strange. In some ways it was amazing, I was so relaxed, could walk around and look at things properly. But I also felt really sad, we won’t ever have our quiet weekdays together going to places when everyone is at work & school. I work Saturdays and know we can go places after school and in the holidays, but it’s different to those quiet days. We used to get a coffee & cake together of cinema & lunch, playground etc. I work part time and see friends sometimes on the other days (the ones who don’t work full time) so i’m good at keeping busy and filling my time, I just miss doing these things with her. I can’t have more children most likely, so that makes it harder. They really were the best days for those years, the hardest in so many ways! But the best, just feel so sad, do I need to get a grip? I haven’t told anyone I feel like this as, all
my friends are happy for the freedom.