I feel like it's a huge betrayal of trust because he thinks everything is peachy between us. Here are a few reasons why I'm doing it:
I almost hit his car once pulling up in the drive because a wasp flew through the window. I stopped just before I was about to hit it. He shouted and swore at me in the street. Told me I was an unfit driver basically and am I going to hit a child at DS’ school because I'm distracted?! He then messaged his family and told them I’d just driven into his car. Told me his reaction was to “save my life“.
A few months ago I accidentally tried to put deisel in my car before paying. He looked me straight in the face and said, “you're really not that bright, are you“. I have inattentive ADHD and I won't lie, it hurt.
I've stopped driving altogether because I have crippling anxiety and don't believe I'm capable. He's a big part of that. We went on holiday to a really rural part of the country. I asked him if he could put me down as a named driver on his car so I could drive the rural roads (I've never had an accident, by the way). He said no!
Every time we go anywhere, I get the kids dressed, ready, etc. Do housework before. You know the drill. He sits there either playing on the x box or watching YouTube. Then berates me for taking 15 minutes to get myself ready and making us late. Never mind that he wont even put the kids’ shoes on.
Me: “Should I put some thyme in this?“
Him: “Don't try and improvise. You'll only fuck it up“.
“...Not only did you manage to fuck up once. But twice.“
Yesterday told me to shut the f^*k up because he couldn't hear the telly.
Baby needed feeding yesterday. Food was cooking on the hob and baby was screaming. I asked him to watch the pasta while I fed baby. No because he was watching the football.
I've had to push his hand away several times in bed AFTER I've already said no!
The problem is I have no evidence to back up my statements. I’m a SAHM and have nowhere else to go. I furnished this house and paid the bond but the let is in his name!
Practically how will the Freedom Program help?
Thanks