So first off I know I'm being totally unfair with how I feel and guess I just want to vent. My ex partner was horribly abusive to me and also not always very nice to my older children, we have 2 children together who he's never really made any effort with... my youngest is a little 25 week miracle and he saw him 4 times in the 3 months he was in hospital. We split up 5 months ago and today I got a message from cafcass as he is now applying to court to see my boys.... I can't even think straight I am so scared of them being around him and I know I'm probably putting my feelings into this as he did some of the worst things to me but I am at the point I just want to hide them away. My boys are now 4&18 months and don't ever stay away from me. I'm so scared... when my 4 year old was little he took him and refused to return him and I had to goto court and I'm now terrified he will do it again with my babies. I know dad's have pr and equal rights and I'm being so unfair but I literally can't imagine the idea of my boys being around him