what to do when you hit 50 and feel filled with regrets.
Is there anything I could do at my age? Will I ever feel better?
I have ended up a single parent to two young children due to my life choices.
their dad was a poor choice ( I was so desperate for kids after my divorce to abusive older man)
I have sole care know if children I desperately wanted but feel alone. My 40s just vanished.
I had a good career but I feel insecure about work like a imposter syndrome because I have low self esteem and think I may be a bit odd.
I decided to work remotely to move away from
abusive dad. So now have no contact with adults except school gate superficial chats.
I was severely anorexic at 15 to 18 and my self esteem / self image never recovered.
I have lots of relationships when I was younger but they all failed.
now perimenopausal with faded looks and I feel very lonely.
last week I met someone from work past and developed a massive overwhelming obsessed crush. I know he briefly was flirty over a decade ago but now married etc .
I just feel so lonely and full of regrets of bad choices and love’s disappointments.
I don’t feel like I’m parenting well as working full time from and caring for kids is tricky.
I’m Not working that well as remote . Where I live is ok but not fantastic.