Sexually assaulted 12 years ago, angry

[ImWally6]

My ex sexually assaulted me about 12 years ago. I never told anyone and remained in a relationship with him for another 6 months after it.

There has been so many repercussions to my life.

We split (I got some backbone and broke it off) and met my fiance who ive been together with for 8 years.

I was randomly scrolling Instagram a few months back and his profile came up as a suggestion. I was surprised so looked as his account and now I can't stop. I know I shouldn't have looked.

He appears to be having an amazing life and is so happy.

I'm burning with rage and sheer fury and have been for the past 12 years. I can't tell anyone as the thought of speaking what he did aloud to my family sickens me.

I don't know how to move forward.

I kindly suggest counselling op. It will really help with the rage.

It's a terrible thing to happen to anyone.

Have you said it outloud to anyone?

Rape Crisis have a webchat. You can message them completely anonymously and they are incredibly helpful.

The Samaritans have an email service, you can email them anything and they reply within a few hours.

I found that, once I'd typed it out, it became easier to process.