Im so dumb. And old co worker has recently contacted me through Instagram, catching up as we've not spoken or seen eachother in a little under a year. It was fine at first. There was always an intense sexual chemistry when We worked together, he was the head chef it was hard to stay away from but I did, we was both in relationships and I knew it would be stupid. And I'm dumb for thinking that connection wouldn't be the same this time around. It went to far and crossed the line, we spoke about things we shouldn't have been speaking about together, I tried so hard to hold myself back, but it's incredibly hard when you have an intense spark with someone. And that was it, we didn't meet, I didn't send any images to him. I quickly realised what I had done. He's been trying to push into my head that I haven't done anything wrong but I'm not silly, I told him I felt guilty. Initially I thought about all the times in the past I've caught my long term partner for 7 years doing this to me and the hate it made me feel. I always moved past it because he always told me he wasn't thinking with him head, I'm his everything blah blah, we've had daily issues for such a long time, he's bipolar and often snaps and pops off at me for nothing, gaslights, certainly doesn't do enough for me and our children, I felt unwanted for so long. It's not excuse but for a second I felt wanted again. Putting all that aside I don't want think I can do life without him. He's my safety, as rough as things get I always forgive him. But now I'm stuck with this massive guilt and I honestly don't know what to do. Spear the nasty comments I'm not trying to sugar coat anything I'm aware of my actions and I know I've done wrong.