Hi. I have finally found the courage to post this.
I was molested at the age of 7. By a distant relative. It happend a few times sometimes in the same room as my parents and sibilings. It also happend on my 8th bday.
I had a step mom who wasnt really cruel but she broke me as a child through words and emotional neglect. Just really put me down as a child made feel shit and ugly. Her attitude changed alil when i started working and giving her money and expensive presents. My father was present but was too occupied with my brother. I feel broken. I tried to please them so much all my life. I am a peaple pleaser. Now I am finally trying to find myself.
I am married now to a lovely man with 2 dc. But I just can't let go of everything that happend to me as a child. I suffer from ptsd I can't even tell my step mom how I feel. Therapy might be a good start but I don't have the money or time for it at this stage.
Where would you start in terms of healing from trauma?