Hi I am about to have an appointment with my psychiatrist using the term loosely as I've just met them twice
My mental health has been the pits for the last twelve months
I successfully had a misdiagnosis for bipolar amended on my records last year with the psychiatrist who was very kind and understanding
I never disputed I haven't got perfect mental health but it's pretty clear that it's not bipolar that is impacting me
For years I've wondered all types of things am I a narcissist, autistic, toxic or horrible etc
My child is on the pathway for an adhd diagnosis and by studying adhd which I didn't know anything about I have come to realise that this is likely the same condition I have too
I fit it quite text book, childhood and upwards and the patterns are the same
I've become extremely skinny and don't eat but not for body image issues. I have recently started mitrazapine and it is really really helping me, doctor has just increased the dose too.
I have unbearable panic attacks and I am very socially anxious which is pretty new in the last year, probably coming from v low self esteem and self worth. I am really angry at myself for not managing my life better and I take so so so much soothing to try to calm down. It's not sustainable for so many reasons.
I use Propanalol and it does help with my physical symptoms but I just sit there full of hate and venom thinking I am a disgusting person, I am very compassionate but I don't think I would be able to tolerate someone like me if they were a friend
I help all my friends in their terrible times but I don't think even I could cope with me when I am sad, because I just catastrophize a lot of stuff and even when I'm told it's ok and not to worry I fully can't break the cycle
Just about to have a meeting and I would like something like lorazepam for panic attacks because they are excruciating
How do I ask for this? I don't want to be shamed for it but think it would benefit me a lot whilst I get my life back on track
Fully aware that an adhd diagnosis may not be what I am going to get and this isn't my asssesment that is years off but I want to ask for some thing to help me in the interim whilst I titrate up on mitrazapine
Has anyone done this how did you ask?
Meeting in a couple of mins
Thank you