I suffer from really bad self esteem, awaiting an ADHD assessment and become overwhelmed really easily. I’m going through a lot of stress at the moment and my poor boyfriend is treating me so well.
I know that when we first met I was in a great place mentally. He said he loved the fact I was so carefree and laid back. I’m not like that now. Every day I say to him “I’m sorry I’ll be my old self soon” but I’m starting to think that this is me now. Every day at least once a day I’m moaning about something, or becoming upset about something, or having a serious conversation. My self esteem is in tatters and I beat myself up over something every day.
I said I’m supposed to be the fun one. He says “you’re supposed to be nothing but you” and that he loves me regardless but I’m really struggling.
I am in therapy and on meds but no improvements yet.
I’m just so stressed about how I’m coming across that I’m just making it worse.
Has anyone got any advice for me?