Hi all!
Just wondering if anyone else feels the same way!
I really just don't like going out. Not in the way that I get scared/anxious or straight up refuse to go outside, I would just always rather be at home.
I do not live with my boyfriend but we go to eachother's houses at the weekends. For example, if I had the option to go out for dinner with my boyfriend or we have a date night cooking at home, I'd always want to stay in. If my boyfriend ever asks if I want to come with him to Tesco, I never want to and usually say no. I feel bad but he says he doesn't mind either way and often seems relieved when I say I'd prefer we stay in. We do go out on date nights, but always agree that we would have a better time at home together so they are becoming more often now. We have a lovely relationship.
Whenever I have social plans coming up, I always dread them. Once I am out the house, I often end up wanting to go home after a few hours but I don't bail on plans or leave early for the sake of others. I am very extroverted socially and always feel very tired and drained after social events, but always perk back up and get my energy back when I am home.
When I have plans with my closest friends, I don't want to leave or feel tired, but before I leave the house I dread the thought of having to go out.
I have spoken to my boyfriend's sister about this. She is autistic and I have always found comfort in her, especially at family events, because I feel she understands me. Part of me suspects I might have some form of high-masking autism which is why I feel so socially drained, but I'm in no position to self-diagnose.
Otherwise, I am nearly 25 and happy with a very full life, alongside some occasional anxieties and stresses. (Nothing major or out of the norm!) I also have a full time job which I love and have no issues going to work but do feel very drained and need to recharge on my own for a while when I get home.
Would love to hear if anybody else feels the same way I do and this is just normal for some?
Thank you xx