im so depressed about my weight ive been making myself sick,taking laxatives,starving myself etc

[mummyjenjen]

since i had my son i have ballooned to 12stone 3 and it is really ruining my life since december i have been dieting i started with a healthy diet and exercise plan but by january i hadnt seen any difference i am only eating around 5oo calories a day when the recomened amount is 2000 i go running every night but still i have not even lost a pound i am on the contraceptive implant and think this may be affecting why i havnt lost any weight its got that bad now that for the last 2 weeks i have been throwing up after meals, taking laxatives,starving myself everything ive tried everything but still have not lost a thing im that depressed about it that its starting to (god im crying now as i write this!)effect my relationship with my partner and i have hardly any energy to look after my son , i know im being terrible and putting shallow reasons before my family but i just cant help it after i eat i feel so guilty and unhappy that i just want to dissapear i cant even look in a mirror without bursting into tears please can someone help me i dont want to ruin my life but thats the way its heading .

I wish I could help but I am struggling myself so can only offer some sympathy. I know it is horrible to feel the way you do but please, try to get some help before this completely takes over your life. 500 calories isn't enough - it won't necessarily make you lose tons of weight and will make you ill. If you think it is the implant, please talk to your GP. No-one deserves to be so unhappy, especially when it can be avoided.

There was recently a thread about food & depression - if you search the archives, I'm sure you'll find it. It really helped me get some control over my eating. Not that it is fixed but I feel better about myself even if I have not lost weight.

Making yourself sick will only remove up to half the calories you consume and the consequences of purging and using laxatives can be quite serious.

Please, try to talk to someone about this.

You deserve to enjoy your son and your family.

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mummyjenjen- so sorry you feel like this I am very overweight - much more than you - and have had phases in the past of doing what you are doing and it didn't help me either. I would seriously consider seeing your GP about the implant - I have a friend who ballooned when she had it and I put on 2 stone after going on the depo provera injection so I think there may be a link. As others have said try to concentrate on healthy, balanced meals and moderate exercise like lots of walking. But definitely see your GP and tell him/her how you are feeling - maybe sorting out the impland and/or having some counselling for how you are feeling might help. Wishing you all the best. x

MMJ is right, your body needs to eat a certain amount of calories a day in order to stay on an even keel, if it isn't fed that amount it will try to stop you losing weight and just make you feel more tired and down.
Eating healthily can make you feel better and vice versa, if you're not getting a good intake you will feel even mroe depressed so it becomes swings and roundabouts.
I'd definitely look into changing the implant.

So sorry you are feeling this way mummyjenjen but I must ditto everything the mildmanneredjanitor has said.
Your body is probably really panicing about where it's going to get it's next lot of fuel from and so will hold on tight to everything you give it rather than being depleted. You must get back to healthy eating (2000 calories a day as a guideline but make it 2000 calories of healthy food as mentioned above).

Have you ever had weight issues before?

Im so sorry you are feeling bad

I also ballooned when pregnant with ds3 and found it impossible to lose the weight....... I was depressed, tired, my skin was bad and my joints ached to name but a few symptoms. It turns out I had a underactive thyroid! and once treated things have slowly returned to normal.
See your G.P. You may have a medical problem. Either way you need some professional support.

Good luck.

mummyjenjen it probably is the contraception injection. I went on Depo Provera and I put on 3 stone over 6 years. I was previously a size 10 then went up to a size 18. I didn't make the connection because I had taken the pill before with no problems.

My appetite increased dramatically, I had cravings all the time and when I dieted I lost very little weight. I'm still having to shed the weight I put on and it's very depressing as I remember how easy it used to be to keep my weight in check.

I have read lot's of people on mumsnet who have had the same experience so your definetly not alone. Just eat healthy and exercise until the contraception injection wears off and you'll find the weight will slowly come back off. If you are starving yourself you'll get into the yo yo diet pattern and that'll make your weight increase.

I think that you should see the doctor - I had an undiagnosed underactive thyroid. No matter what I did I could not lose weight, depressed and tired. It is worth getting checked out - just a blood test. Once I was on the correct medication I started to lose weight, my mood lifted and got lots more energy. Hope this helps!

Please see your GP. Whatever the reason for your weight gain, they should be able to help you with some simple, starter steps to a healthier life. Good luck

thanks everyone for your support, after reading your posts i definatly feel a little better just knowing im not alone in how i feel is great , i was going around looking at other new mums who seemed to have just sprung back to a size 8 but just knowing that other mums feel like i do has really helped me get things into perspective. i am going to see the health visitor today so ill talk to her about it. i think i just needed someone to snap me out of my mindset and i think a lot of your comments have especialy the ones about contraceptive as this has made feel at least theres a chance its not just me and there could be a reason why ive not lost anything. thanks all

so sorry to hear you are feeling so miserable, I know the feeling well since having my first son I have had a constant battle with my weight and it does get me down.

I also had the implants which made it impossible to loose weight and affected my moods really really badly, it made me very depressed and I ended up having to have them removed.

Definately go to your doctor and have a chat with them about how you are feeling and what you are doing be totally honest, it may be that you have an underlying medical condition causing all this. If nto hopefully you will get support from the doctor

I hope you feel better very soon.

mummyjenjen i think whenyou are low you are only seeing the people yuo want to see ie gorgeous skinny minnies with babes, they also could have lots of issues themselves. I also had issues with depo and weight increase and feeling depressed, please get some help soon
xx

This is the thread I mentioned earlier that helped get me back on more of an even keel. I usually eat pretty well but having focussed more on the low GI thing, I have lost my cravings for food which makes me feel so much better. Like I said, I am by no means better but at least I don't keep thinking about food all the time and can feel good about what I do eat.

Basically, you need lots of fruit & veg, wholegrain bread, brown pasta & rice and things like Quinoa and lentils and no white carbs (at least in the beginning). Bananas seem to really help too.

My friend had the same problem with the implant. She was very good and didn't lose a single lb. She had it removed and she didn't have a period for over a year during which time she struggled with the weight. As soon as she came on the weight fell of her.

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mummyjenjen you are going to do your body more harm than good.....when eating only 500 calories a day you are putting your body into starvation mode,which slows your metabolism down...the most important meal is your breakfast, this starts your metabolic stimulants off in the morning....you dont have to starve yourself to lose weight....you probably wont lose weight doing this....go to your gp and ask to see a dietician they will help you work a healthy eating programme out.

If you are eating 500 calories a day including drinks and not losing weight it must be the implant or something causing the problem. and 500 is way too low anyway. You should lose weight if you change your diet to healthy low GI/GL foods only and on 1,500 a day. Avoid bread.

I found that when I looked decent I felt better, I got those magic knickers that suck everything in so when I went out I looked good despite carrying much baby weight.

Don't hate me but previously I never had a problem with my weight but after ds2 I found it really hard to lose the last stone (I gained about 4stone in pregnancy and it was the daily walk to school for ds1 that really helped me lose some weight)

but I joined Slimming World only 7 weeks ago and I have dropped 11lb. This was even with me eating chocolate, biscuits etc as I just planned in the treats. I am almost down to where I was pre- pregnancy with both children. If you eat a low amount of calories you will shut your body down and you will just hold onto anything you eat.

If you have a lot of weight to lose then some support can really help, I go to Slimming World with my mate who has lost over 3 stone.

I would recommend something like Slimming World because it makes it REALLY easy to follow it, big list of all free foods, then a list of dairy stuff and a list of fibre stuff so it takes out all the guess work. My sister does Weight Watchers but I found it really hard to follow and therefore it was too much like hard work.

Also I have heard that the implant can cause the weight problems and can make you low.

How old is your baby? My ds2 is almost 2!!! So I have carried a lot of weight for a while now.

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Sending you loads of hugs, I know how you feel as I've battled weight issues for years but this is not the way to lose weight, all you'll lose is your health, mummyjenjen, cos 500 calories is no way enough, nowhere near. As the others have said, your body has gone into starvation mode because it isn't getting anything to fuel it so its holding on to what it has at the moment.