I don’t want to go into a lot of detail because it’s a VERY long story. But long story short, I tried to break up with DP this morning. After he begged and we had a very long chat, I decided to not break up with him and see how things go. But I gave him a final warning and told him to be very careful because he’s on very thin ice and that even if he does the smallest thing then we’re done.
A few hours later he wants to have sex. (This would be our first time in 6 weeks, as I only had a baby) I agree but ask him to put on a condom, he told me absolutely not. (I’m not on contraception, as of yet, as I want to have a proper think and chat with dr about which would be best, as I’ve had a LOT of negative experiences on contraceptives and I’m considering using condoms as contraception.) He also questioned why I had condoms as we’ve never used them. I ordered them a few weeks ago for when the time came, he seemed very annoyed. Anyways, he refused to wear one and he had told me he’ll never ever use one even if it’s my choice of contraception and that I’ll need to accept a relationship without sex because he’s not using one. This set me off and I told him we’re done because he’s disrespectful.
We sorted things out…. He then agreed in future he’ll use one because he’d rather have sex with condoms than lose me.
fast forward an hour later everything is okay, I go get a shower as we were going to take baby a walk in the pram. When I walked into the room (I’m fully ready) and he sniggers as he looks me up and down. I already know by the way he was looking at me, that he was laughing at my outfit. I said what’s so funny? He said your outfit. I said why what’s funny about it? He said everything. I said okay, can you tell me what could I change. He said everything. (My outfit was mom jeans, a body suit and a cropped cardigan, I thought it looked super cute until he said this :( ) anyway, I started crying and told him he’s made me super paranoid and I don’t want to leave the house anymore. We got into an argument and I made him leave and I told him we’re done. He told me he was only joking and he didn’t mean it and that I’m perfect. I just don’t believe him. Am I being too sensitive?
Because I’ve now finished him, he’s trying to say I’m only breaking up with him because I’m going to a festival in 2 weeks and I want to be single for it. (Which is so untrue!) I don’t even want another relationship or even a fling after him.
I love him and I know it’ll be hard, especially after having our first baby 6 weeks ago. I don’t know what to do.