Starting HRT and libido

[SunSeaSand55]

So I'm 47 and have been married 20 years. 3 kids later our sex life certainly dwindled. But over the last 2 years we really made an effort and more recently I have been hit with a huge range of emotions (I'm the female wife btw) and after having sex 1 - 2 times a year I've had these feelings resurrected. It's been fantastic and my husband and I have really connected again.
But the downside is I've felt so down too, terrible anxiety and even feelings of not wanting to be here anymore. Been irrationally angry, moody and horrible to him and the kids. Saw the GP and was given HRT (tablets and gel). This was nearly 8 weeks ago. I'm scared to start taking it. Mostly I'm feeling good but that can switch at the drop of a hat. I want the horrible feelings that I get to go away but I'm so surprised and pleased at these new feelings of wanting to shag him so much after years of practically nothing that it might affect that feeling too.Wwyd? Put up with the bad stuff and keep the good or try HRT and hope for it to all be good?

I dithered over taking HRT. Eventually I got fed up of not finding joy in anything, not wanting to go anywhere, so I decided I’d trial it for 3 months. And I’m still on it !
Not wanting to take it is caused by your anxiety, the thing you’re trying to stop. Try it.

I just don't understand why you would NOT take HRT? Why the hesitancy? I had peri symptoms, was offered HRT, took it, felt better, the end. Why all the dithering?

My libido has increased after going on HRT

Dithering because of fear of the unknown I suppose. I'm going to start it and will come off it obviously if I have any problems. I can't do it until my period starts though. Hoping my libido increases more too!

It did nothing for my libido I’m afraid.

@SunSeaSand55 perhaps worried about loss of libido and weight gain that is talked about on most menopause forums?

Sorry the above mention was for @jemimafuddleduck and not @SunSeaSand55 .