Can't stop daydreaming about the house

[Gahhhhereheisagain]

A year ago I was considering moving for a number of reasons. Spoiler alert, decided to stay put. I viewed about fifty houses, made offers on ten which I lost out on. One I loved. It went for around 50K over what I could afford.
I didn't have my heart set on it because I knew it would.
I felt so happy in that house.
It was wrong in so many ways. It was in the wrong area. The third bedroom was tiny. It was on a busy road. Yet I cannot stop thinking about it.
I felt so calm in that kitchen. The garden was beautiful. The lounge just felt cosier.
I felt safe.
How do I achieve that in my current house?
Do I just hold out for a similar house coming onto the market again? It was really the layout that made it, much more open plan, beautiful big kitchen diner with wood burners and bi fold doors leading to the garden.
My area is rough so I will never feel that same peace here, so I know what I'm aiming for.
Anyone ever had similar?

I think you need to put to rest a property that you no doubt spent all of 10 mins in? It was disappointing but I think you’ve put it on a pedestal perhaps because you aren’t generally happy with life?

@Layinwait yes definitely unhappy back then, I placed a lot of importance in changing where I lived. Since then I've been making other changes and generally happier now except the lack of safety I feel in my own house.

How much did it go for in the end?

Did you buy alone?

£355K (nothing in MN terms)

@Layinwait well it was going to be with someone but it's not now. Part of my thought process about ending my relationship was that I didn't imagine him in any of the houses I viewed. But now that I'm in 'our' house alone, that also feels wrong.

So no children?

OP one way of looking at the place you missed out on is that that you weren’t even remotely close to the selling price. If you were to look at many houses 20% over over maximum budget, I’m pretty sure you’d fall in love with many of them!