Not looking for a justification for this lifestyle, I don’t condone it, neither am I wanting to start a thread which upsets or triggers anyone who’s lived as a participant or a sufferer of someone else’s addiction. But more as a pondering about the clinical and psychological reasons behind heavy drug use. Different personalities and different outcomes and motivation for use. I’m very connected to the music industry , I’m also very into British literature and currently work with those in the arts. I’m just watching a documentary about the Rolling Stones , arguably the most successful rock and roll band in the world. Listening to their stories about using cocaine and heroin I’m stuck by the fact that they went heavy and hard into these drugs and somehow ( barring Brian) made their way back out of it and have lived long,healthy lives like many of our 70’s musicians. Firstly , why? Why were they drawn to use them? Surely if you’re hella sexy and talented and have every girl in a 1000 mile radius throwing themselves at your feet you don’t need anymore dopamine ? Or do you? Is it that creative people, talented people, are more prone to stress and worry, are they mere mortals like us, so that despite their talent , they need this stuff to cope with the pressures and anxiety of performing? Every serious and harmful drug user that I knew growing up was using the substance to self medicate pain, they were trying to forget, trying to cope. But these high profile users that apparently were confident and Successful were getting in similar messes, Keith Richards in the south of France was just as addicted as any other smackhead , worse by the sound of it than my dear friend who died at 31. They had little in common other than both being compellingly interesting and creative, talented people, beautiful souls, and here lies my theory, what if, the brain chemistry of certain people makes you more prone to seeking resolution, balance, what if that brain type happens to be the more creative one, what if the stones all got better because they’re rich and had good support , but there’s a whole community of junkies that are just tortured souls with less privilege? I was a wreck head once, not a junkie, not an addict , but when life got shit I’d run off to the party and take anything anyone wanted to give me,I’ve been in some right states. Some of those states were with famous, successful people. I’m now an academic with a very busy family life that does a bloody good job of dealing with the shit life throws me, I’m also successful because I’m creative, talented, a bit jammy I think.not because I’m clever or a good planner, I’m basically a walking ADHD shitstorm with neurodiverse kids and a very patient husband. I’m extremely fortunate to live the way I do, because 20 years ago, I’d not have thought twice about smoking some heroin or crack, I loved a bit of crack at 15 ( I’ve touched nothing for nearly 20 years) But I can honestly say, that every single druggie I’ve ever met was an artist , a poet , a musician, a warrior of some sort and they were all very bright in their own way.
I can’t help wondering if going back the Victorian era where you could buy it and get on with life was a better model. It’s only a crime because they made it one, sir Arthur Conan Doyle wrote some fabulous books under the influence, most of our best music was made under the influence, the harm and sadness comes from poverty and that is because it’s illegal and therefore sourced through crime. The same crime that supports all kind of dark things as we know. What do you think?