I'm so fed up at the moment I feel this horrible fog of misery. I appreciate that's an extreme statement but I'm so fed up.
It's the end of the summer holidays. Kids are bored. I'm bored. No money left. No ideas left.
I have ME/CFS which I'm currently signed off from work on. Work are being shitty about it.
I can't get through a day without a nap and I'm constantly yawning. I'm 27.
I have two dc, ds is 4 and starts reception in 2 weeks. Dd is 2. Dd has been unwell this weekend and I'm so fed up of hearing the coughing. I know that sounds awful but it's just boiling me up.
Every night dh and I are too exhausted to even talk to one another. Then I go to bed and start reading my book and dd is awake again whinging and wanting to be in my bed. Both kids are up before 6am daily and don't stop until bed time.
Dh tries his best letting me nap at lunch time but he's exhausted too because of the constant drain.
It's mine and dh's birthday in a week and I just cannot be arsed for it. I know kids will find a way of whinging through them.
Obviously I don't say any of this to dc but they can tell I'm frustrated and upset.
The noise level is overstimulating and I just want to run away.
Dh tries to tell me to not let it get on top of me etc but I'm currently sat at the end of dd bed waiting for her to go to sleep while she fucks about kicking me and singing songs. It takes over an hour to get her to bed each night. Then last night she was coughing so much she was awake for hours in the night. I suspect asd with her (dh has asd) and one of her stims is physical touch but I'm touched out. She will just rub her hands all over my face and kick me in the leg almost like a cat kneeds with its paws.
It's all too much and I'm at breaking point... And there's another two weeks of this before they're back to a sustainable level of stimulation.
Am I the only one fed up of these summer holidays?