I’m horribly indecisive and get tunnel vision with certain ideas, so looking for some outsider perspective before I make a huge decision…
I’m a single mum to a toddler working for the NHS as a qualified healthcare professional. Band 5 with potential for promotion to band 6, but not sure I want the extra responsibility. Currently work 3 days a week. I also have a small business that I’ve run since DC was born, that makes me some decent extra income. I’m struggling with inflexibility with my employer when it comes to DC/childcare, and generally feeling like I have no work/life balance despite only working 3 days a week.
I’ve started doing some locum work remotely, which is very flexible and pays very well. There’s plenty of this work, albeit I am aware that it isn’t guaranteed. My AIBU is, am I being completely idiotic to give up such a stable and secure job with the NHS to go fully self-employed, relying on my locum work and small business? I’ve done the sums and on paper it should work out similar financially, especially as my tax return will be smaller when the self-employed income is my only income, rather than it being additional income on top of my wage.
I’m terrified to hand my notice in! On one hand, I’m thinking life is far too short to be miserable at work and barely have a life (I’m under no illusion that being self-employed will be bloody hard work too, but I hate working for other people!). On the other hand, the thought of giving up a reliable wage every month, decent pension, holiday pay etc, is making me question it. My role is fairly niche, but in high demand, so I have no doubt that I could get another job if I needed to…
Sorry, totally convoluted thoughts coming out but happy to hear opinions or if there’s anything I haven’t considered. I have a fairly long notice period so ideally will decide sooner rather than later…