I've been seeing someone since January. He has two kids, I have one. He's the first person I've met through online dating that I've felt really comfortable with, our values aligned, we have loads of fun and sexual chemistry.
But over the last couple of months, he's made it clear he's not sure where he was at and I was fine with that for a while cos I was just happy to meet someone nice and that added joy to my life. But since then, it's become very unbalanced, and I've constantly felt like I've been the one chasing him. He's been leaving my house at 3am to go home saying that it's cos of his kids which I kind of understood but I felt pretty shitty.
A couple of weeks ago, I mentioned I'd had a shit day, and he told me that he couldn't be my emotional support. But then days later, I was on holiday and he text me to ask for advice and support as his son has been diagnosed with OCD. I just felt like he constantly sets the parametres.
He won't have any discussion about what we are or emotions, even to relay bad news. I'm not particularly after a formal status but I do want some communication about what to expect.
Anyway, It came to a head when I got back from holiday and he left again at 3am and I said stay, it's fine cos his kids were with their mum, but he left again and I just felt like crap waking up in the morning.
I've just now deleted his number and blocked him not cos I don't want a difficult conversation but cos I'm not sure he deserves an explanation anymore and because I know if he's able to contact me, I'll just keep this going cos I really fancy him.
But I hate ghosters and Ive been ghosted and feel really conflicted about whether I'm just a hypocrite. One day I'd like to actually be friends with him as it's so rare in your late thirties to meet someone you have such a lovely time with. But if I see him now, I'll just want to sleep with him.
Do you think this is ok or am I a crap hypocrite?