I have childhood PTSD and DH mum triggers me. DH knows about my abuse. I tried to explain to him today I understand why I get triggered around her. He rolls his eyes at me. I don’t want t to go into huge details as I could literally write 20 books on the subject but just for context he never supports me or makes me feel that he’s listening or cares. Just a few examples: when DD was born MIL whose Indian started crying and said God has cursed her family by not giving her a grandson. I was upset and DH told me to grow up and I can just ignore her “in one ear and out of the other ear” is his motto, my DD was 3 days old when she made this comment.
over time MIL has called me fat, said I shouldn’t wear certain colours. She’s tried to get me divorced from DH and once told me to pack my bags and leave my DD with her.
I had an awful childhood and I know it might sound odd to someone who had a normal childhood but I kind of put up with it as it wasn’t as bad as what I’ve already been through. Part of me feel I deserve this. I’m trying to get better and in one book I’m reading (Paul Walker) he suggests telling those close to you when you are having a flashback and what your triggers are. I tried this morning and he rolled his eyes at me. How do I react? I got upset and cried infront of the kids. They’re playing now. We were supposed to go out as a family. I don’t know how I salvage the day.