To constantly be such a bitch??

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I'm in such a nasty, bitchy mood lately and I cannot shake it.

I'm anaemic, ferritin level is only 7 and I'm having a colonoscopy and endoscopy at the same time in a couple of weeks and I'm dreading it.

Yesterday, I spent £125 on a guy to clean our carpets and literally hours later my DH spilled an entire cup of tea over the lounge carpet and its stained.

My DSS14 decided to try to 'dim' his bedside lamp by putting a t-shirt over it, resulting in the t shirt smoking and me and DH having a huge row because I said my DS13 could have been killed as well as DSS14 in a fire.

I'm just becoming such a miserable cow. I'm 40 and feeling and looking so rough, all the time.

I barked at my DSS10 earlier because he wanted just crisps for dinner and wouldn't tell me anything else he wanted.

My DS13 is ND and just stays in bed as much as he can and I can't excite him about anything.

How can I become more Mary Poppinsy and less Wicked Witch??

Ha! You're not a bitch if everyone else is a pain in the arse!! I'm the same, looks like I'm menopausal but no HRT for me till I get my cholesterol down. Watch out world!

Don't be so hard on yourself- you are quite entitled to be frustrated and worn down in those circumstances.
Can you take a day for yourself and just chill? I booked a Premier Inn room once as I was so desperate for alone time!
Are you possibly peri too? It can play bloody havoc with your mood and energy.
I hope your health issues are sorted soon - you must be shattered. I've had two endoscopies and they weren't so bad.

Ahh, thanks for replying, honestly didn't think anyone would to such self pitying diatribe 🤣

Yes I'm pretty much sure I'm peri which doesn't help. On good days, I love my "boys" to death but I've not had many good days lately and I want a few!

A day to myself does actually sound amazing..

Thanks for reassurance on the endoscopy too. I'm being sedated but I think with them doing both ends at the same time I'm gonna be like a pig roasting over a spit. A chubby, miserable, old pig.

Are you being a bitch or are you just getting pissed off with everyone around you being a dickhead?

You’re not a bitch, they’ve been very stupid.

I was the same, ferritin was 7, had a colonoscopy and endoscopy, but all came back normal (no coeliac etc).

I am still trying to work out why my iron absorption is so bad.

But I’m taking ferrous fumurate 210mg twice a day and my ferritin has got up to 127.

What are you having the colo and endo for?

This

No help just solidarity and hugs, you panicked, that's not being a bitch. Plus you're wrecked tired! DS10 I'd have lost it too, DS13-try a board game night, bribe with goodies if necessary. Also ask for help with something only he can help with and thank him like he's saved the world. If all else fails just sit up and chat with him for a while. Hugs x

🥲 you guys are being too nice

I'm having the tests cos I'm absolutely flipping exhausted and i had a couple of episodes of blood when doing no 2, only happened twice though

No, you are not a bitch, every single one of those would send me over the edge aswell.

As a child and through my teens I was a pleasant person.
It was marriage and children that turned me into a hateful, vile tempered bitch.

Oh my love you are NOT a miserable old pig, but thank you for making this chubby old pig properly laugh for the first time in a while 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

like others have said, it's hard to be Bloody Mary Poppins when people are being morons! I always tell my husband I'd be the best mum in the world if I didn't have any kids!!!!

cut yourself some slack, I hope next week goes ok xx

I need to read this today. Everyone is pissing me off. My ferritin is 11 and I’m taking ferrous fumerate but hate the digestive issues that brings. I’m expected to carry on today normally by my family.

You have every right to be pissed off in those scenarios

Probably worrying in the back of your mind about your health, definitely take a day for yourself!

Hope all goes well for your tests - and whatever is making you exhausted is minor and easily corrected.

You didn't ask, but YANBU!

This. You're perfectly reasonable to not tolerate living with morons. Particularly if you're not feeling well. Don't be hard on yourself. Your reactions are totally normal and healthy.

You guys are making me feel so much more normal 🤣

This phase of life is really tough! I don't know my arse from my elbow most days.

Ahh you know though, the little angel of a man who cleaned my carpets contacted me to check I was happy with them, and when I told them about DH basically trying to start a tea surfing class in my lounge literally hours after the clean, the little angel man came and fixed it, no charge. Was such a boost for me to receive such kindness!

My DSS's are back tomorrow and I bought them a pack of mini chocolates to apologise for being the Evil Stepmother on steroids on Tuesday.

Tomorrow is another day! We keep buggering on