I’m freaking out and feeling sorry for myself.
Im going to preface this by saying in the last 4 years I have had ONE nice event I’ve gone to. That’s it, that’s all. No hobbies, no groups, no social life, hubby works all the time and we have two toddlers one of whom is significantly disabled (no respite or SS support until he’s school age already gone down that route)
Anyway, I’m my only siblings wedding at the weekend. Been planned for 2 years. It’s not super close or convenient for us but so important to me to be there so have made an effort to plan/prep. All of which was supposed to be done this week, asked DH to take Friday off holiday too so I could really enjoy it. He didn’t because he said the kids were in nursery, fair enough.
Anyway, I was unwell the first part of the week with labarinthitis and Last night DD was violently sick (stomach bugs seem to always take our whole house down) she’s 2 and basically made of Velcro right now so i’m dreading I’ll get it and even if I don’t there is SO MUCH that needs done over the next 24 hours to get us there and without nursery I have zero chance 🤷♀️
I know it’s nobody’s fault but I have had a HARD 4 years and have nothing enjoyable or for myself ever, was it too much to ask to just have a nice wedding without this hanging over me?
I’m a huge emetophobe (failed CBT to help) so it’s really really bothering me.
I feel a bit like it always sodding happens to me, others must think that too as several have said it today ‘poor you this always happens to you doesn’t it’ kinda comments