There is no such thing as sugar addiction.

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If I read or here this again, I will scream.
I am a sugar addict. I cannot control myself around the substance but frequently trick myself into believing that I can have a little on special occasions. I can't. This thinking leads to sugar binge eating.
I've just eaten four ice-cream's. A bag of chocolate chips, spoons of maple syrup and lots of biscuits. I would have eaten more but all the other sweet stuff has been hidden by my husband (at my request) I don't binge on anything else.
I've previously eaten my children's Easter eggs, S'more sets which were meant for camping and ingredients for a granola recipe for my children.
Once I start, I can't stop.
I've just finished searching the house for the hidden chocolate and have given up.
I'm now crashing on sugar and feel hopeless and depressed.
It wasn't always like this. I gave up for 30 days once and felt amazing. I didn't even want anything sweet and felt like I'd conquered this obsession. I then had a slice of cake at a birthday party and the hell spiral continues.
I'm now crying. I'm going on holiday tomorrow and know I won't have the strength to say no.
I lost a lot of weight on Ozempic but now I'm going back to my old ways.
If anyone has any words of wisdom. I would really appreciate it.
Thanks x

Totally. I can’t eat anything sugar or I crave more. I’ve been sugar free for 12 years.

I had my EMDR on the NHS just recently. I self referred and asked about trauma focused CBT as private counselling had got me so far but wasn’t helping anymore. The person I spoke to said that they felt CBT would risk re-traumatising me as I was very cognitively aware of what had happened in my life. The EMDR techniques worked for me. Instead of thinking of a one time traumatic event as like you it had been a childhood full of smaller but significant events, I thought of a small event that had happened that week that triggered me and work back from that. Was very successful. I will always have cPTSD but I have tools now and also have re-processed a lot of the historic trauma so I much less triggered on a daily basis. I felt I was heading towards a cliff with ever more severe health issues all with stress as an underlying cause. Two really useful books are “the body keeps the score” and “recovering your inner child”. I’m losing weight and taken up weights because I’ve got the energy to exercise and whilst I still get triggered and crave sugar etc, it is to a much lesser extent so I’ve cut down on sugar without having to cut it out just because of the changes EMDR have given me. I can also sleep again which is feeling so great!

I cannot really help much with the eating and you’ve had lots of great advice here which I hope helps.
But I am a bit aghast at the idea of a Therapist who hasn’t had meaningful therapy herself…as how can you possibly have healthy professional boundaries without the process of therapy and genuine self-awareness? I’m sure You KNOW your eating is an attempt of sorts to feed the inner child and to make up for the neglect you suffered… and the only way you will really solve this is to address the issues faced in your childhood, feed your inner child with something other than food… and stop eating your feelings. Get some decent therapy…

I was the same, always looking for my next fix of sugar. Had 3 sugars in tea and coffee, ate whilst in trance and not registering the amount I was scoffing.
10 months ago I started drinking coffee with MCT keto powder and MCT oil. Its changed my life!
I no longer get the urges and cravings for sugar and I've lost almost 3 stone and I feel so much better.
Have a look at Davinia Taylor ond Willpowders.

I could have written this OP, including the quantities and eating jam straight out of the jar etc etc

I was lucky enough to get proper supervision to do keto for a medical condition. It was an 8 week study, but I've been doing it for a year and it's helped me manage both the medical condition and the sugar binges amazingly well.

I stopped drinking many years ago because I couldn't moderate that either. It was harder to say no to the second drink than the first.

I decided that in order to stay away from refined carbs, I had to understand that it was also much more difficult to say no to the second biscuit than the first. Exactly the same for me as drinking.

I monitor my blood sugar and ketone levels regularly and can see the consequences of too many carbs in the readings. It takes a couple of days to get back to decent levels. I also find this is motivation to stay on track.

Yes, I would really enjoy cake or chocolate, of course I would, but for me it's a very slippery slope. I've slipped down that slope too many times and I can't be arsed climbing back up again so now I stand well back 🤣

Yes that's me too. And I used to eat oxo cubes, raw pasta etc