This is going to be really hard to explain but I’ll try. I have a lovely boyfriend and I really struggle when he isn’t explicitly showing or telling me he loves me. I’ve had therapy before and heard this is a symptom of the messy childhood I had.
He plays sport at a really high level. Today they have a big event, where the whole club and families get together, drink, eat food and have a big game.
He has come over and sat with me a fair bit. He’s also, at times, gone to sit with team mates and prepared for the game. It’s fair enough.
I personally struggle with going up to new people, making conversation etc. at some points he has left me on my own and I’ve been struggling with what to do or say.
I mentioned to him that I felt a bit on my own and he hasn’t come over that much.
He said I was out of order, I’m not being respectful of the time he is taking to sit with me, and that he also needs to focus on the game and that “lots of people want to talk to him today”.
I’m trying so hard to be understanding but I also thought he’d care about how I felt. He also said “don’t act all innocent” which I thought was really nasty.
Am I being harsh? And if so, how do I get over this feeling? How do I stop being so down when he’s not spending time with me?