Childhood trauma

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I want to keep this as short as possible. I suffered from childhood trauma which has affected my adult life for as long as I can remember. It has never been something I've worked on, I've always just acknowledged it and continued feeling and behaving the way I have always done. This has impacted my relationships, career, self talk, substance abuse etc.

However, the past few months I have been doing inner child healing meditation and I noticed tonight that I feel so much lighter. That's the best way I can describe it. I feel less heavy inside, I don't hate myself so much, I don't want to self destruct anymore.

I've been doing this meditation for the last few months, on a daily basis. I have had some outstanding experiences, I have found some so emotional and others so healing and others I have felt haven't helped me at all.

I never believed in meditation etc but I honestly haven't felt this light, ever. And it makes me think, I feel like I'm unlocking parts of myself and nourishing myself and therefore, I don't have that horrid heavy, hateful feeling inside.

Is this possible or AIBU?

That sounds lovely, well done you. And YY, generally, people feel better when they address trauma - of course!

If you're feeling better OP, then you're definitely not being unreasonable. It sounds like you've come a very long way, and I'm over the moon for you.

I’ve had awful childhood trauma that followed me mentally and physically my entire adult life until I discovered reiki and meditation a few months ago. It’s literally changed my life :)

I've had childhood and adult trauma and have just started emdr therapy, it's mind blowing how it works, but I'm definitely feeling 'lighter'.

EMDR made me worse unfortunately

OP would you mind sharing how you do these mediations? Is it based on some online guidance or class based? I was wondering is there was a specific podcast or something.

Thanks