I just can’t see a point any more. I’m not suicidal that sounds like far too much effort and pain. But really, what is the point?
I want to just go to sleep and not wake up again. I can’t see a way life is ever going to get better. I’ve ground on and on for decades now and I am so fucking tired of it all.
No one would have a clue I felt like this. I’m the strong one, the helper, the shoulder to cry on. But I couldn’t think of a single person I could call tonight and tell them how I’ve been feeling. How pathetic is that!
I couldn’t get a doctors appointment even if I wanted one - and what’s the point to dose you up on medication that doesn’t even help. I can’t afford a therapist.
I just needed to say in somewhere. Now tell me IABU and to fuck off and get a grip.
please.