I am quite a paranoid person, I think it comes from low self esteem and anxiety. I will always assume people don't really like me and care too much about it.
If I walk past a group of people and they laugh, I will assume it's about me even though it's likely not.
I hate being looked at, I don't have a unique kind of look but I hate when (some) other women look you up and down to see what you're wearing, are you slim/pretty etc.
I know I'm really not special and most people are worried about themselves.
I find I assume the worst of people and think they have bad intentions, assume friends talk about me behind my back.
It comes from being bullied and an abusive relationship I think.
I worked at a 6th form college until recently as a sort of intervention tutor.
One day one of my students walked past me with 2 girls. He called my name so I turned round and said hi and smiled. He then asked me what time he was supposed to meet me and I told him then left.
As I walked off one of the girls went "I think you've got a there Cody."
I didn't hear what she said but then the boy Cody laughed.
I mean really who cares what some 18 year olds say and think but this boy was quite polite and hard working in my classes and I was a bit disappointed that they would laugh at me, I'd understand if they were 11.
Anyway I just want to stop being so paranoid, assuming the worst and being filled with anxiety all the time.
Can therapy improve this? I don't know what else to do. Other people have noticed it too, and I just want to be more relaxed and happy in general. Does anybody else feel like this?