I want to tell everyone to f**k off

[Valenteena]

Just wondering if I'm suffering from burnout or do I have psychological issues? Yesterday I spent the whole day getting ready for a trip, getting ready for visitors and getting ready to go away on a week-long summer school for myself. I have two 10 year old girls who wouldn't get off their screens and when they did they argued and hurt eachother. I couldn't deal with any of it and spent the day muttering under my breath 'just fuck off', 'fuck you' etc. I've been like this before when I struggle to find anything in the tank. Tidsy, now that we are on the road bringing my dad for a procedure (he's 83) I feel a bit better. Hopefully over the worst.

I can't ignore the fact that my husband moved out last weekend after years of years of extremely challenging behaviour. I was delighted there, for a few days, so was taken aback to have such a negative day. Yesterday I was constantly apologising to my kids for being short tempered. They heard me say an exasperated 'f**k' under my breath just the once and were able to point out that it wasn't OK). I feel really bad at how extreme I felt quietly inside though.

You mention your husband moving out almost as an afterthought as if this shouldn’t be affecting you. This is a very big thing, even if at face value it’s an improvement on your life.

You need time to deal with all this. Kids stuck on screens is an irritant all parents face nowadays.

I think you should take some time out, where and when you can, to do things or talk to friends to feed your soul.

It’s probably all give, give on your part. I think you need to find a way to do a little taking.

Best of luck.

Sounds like you have a tonne of stuff going on. Be kind to yourself.

Sorry, but I was amused by your question alongside the fact that you can't even type 'fuck'!

Sounds like you're having a tough time of it. I think you should be kinder to yourself and allow yourself to express how you feel, openly. There's absolutely nothing wrong with expressing negative feelings overtly. It's definitely a female thing, and it's behind the whole #BeKind nonsense.

Hopefully your week-long summer school will give you some valuable 'you time' and will make you feel better.