All my life, I have tried to be a good person. I work in a job where I make a difference to young people facing challenges. It's not always easy but I'm fond of them and want what's best for them.
This weekend, during my time off and off my own bat, I've been in touch with some external agencies to help our young people. I seem to have had a good response and am delighted about this.
But here's the thing, I enjoy the glory of doing these things and being able to tell my line manager that my efforts have paid off. I like being held in positive regard by others. I think this stems of deep-seated insecurities from my past.
Does this take away from me doing it for the right reasons? I'm genuinely antagonising over this a bit. Does it matter if the end result is the same? I always eyeroll when I see people on social media give charity to those in need and then post it for all to see. But maybe I'm just the old-school equivalent 
I'm too embarrassed to discuss this with anyone in real life, but would genuinely appreciate your responses.
Do I have a point or am I being much too hard on myself? I should add that there is absolutely no material gain in this for me, nor would I want there to be. However it should massively benefit my department as a whole, and the young people we work with.
I appreciate I probably sound a bit nuts 