I went out with one of my closest friends around 2 months ago and we got chatting about our next babies. I explained that we were TTC but I felt like stress from my current job isn’t helping and felt like I needed some time away. She stated that she wanted to focus on her career and get a new job first but did also want a second child soon. We’re buying a new build house and she asked whether we should just wait until it’s ready (October time) and try then. Anyway, she’s now pregnant. I’m obviously over the moon for her but I can’t help but feel a little jealously over the fact that she wanted to hold off but has ended up pregnant and can’t help but think she’s done it on purpose. When we were planning my DD, she knew about that and suddenly she fell pregnant at the same time. I felt like this then but I wasn’t bothered as I was also pregnant, we went through our maternity leave together and it was lovely. Our girls are 20 days apart, hers being the older of the two. We’re godmothers to each other’s DD and do spend a lot of time together so AIBU to even think that she’d do it on purpose? 😔 I feel so guilty for even thinking it. My husband says I’m looking into it too much and it’ll happen when it happens. I get that. I get that I need to focus on our family more but I guess it’s just hard.