Have woken up this morning with extra existential dread as I contemplate likely personal bankruptcy and homelessness as a struggling small business owner. But hey ho, it's probably because I'm not vibrating at a high enough level and nothing to do with the absolute clusterfuck that is current geo-politics and an economy skewed to funnel more and more money to fewer and fewer people.
I admit I'm too thick to get my head around it all but the whole system is nuts.
Money is supposed to be a tool to make exchange of goods and services easier, right? Because not everyone can carry a bag of goats around and not everyone would find a goat helpful.
How the hell has this become the nightmare that it is?
Money is something we constructed, and that could be controlled in a fairer system if people in power weren't so greedy. There just isn't the will to do it.
This thing about not printing money because it drives prices up etc is because that's how the system is designed - so it could be changed surely?
All the time we hear about how the "market" dictates it all. The stock market is essentially gambling.
Rigging of the markets is entirely plausible.
With the little understanding I have, factor in the inevitable changes that technological advances are going to make to everything and faster than we realise, it's going to be increasingly difficult to keep up if you don't already have money.
Money buys choice and certain freedoms. And widgets. Right now the choices are simply food, shelter and energy for those with the least money. No fun for you. You may be able to afford the bread but you'll only get the circus if you download this app.
It's all doing my head in. The lunatics appear to be running the asylum.
I get that progress is inevitable but I'm not sure as a species we're geared up for the speed of it now. People always say oh this has happened before, things will get better, it will sort itself out, but at what cost? It looks to me as though the economy is structured to benefit the few over the many, but why? Is it ideological?
I just want to be able to pay my bills and perhaps go to the pub once or twice a week. Maybe buy a new frock from the charity shop occasionally because sustainability etc. And for my community to avoid implosion. Why is that too much to ask?
In order to keep myself I sell widgets. I have to pay for the privilege to do so before I even get to pay myself. You can bleat on about hard work etc but it isn't currently paying. I can't meet my obligations. I can't afford to downsize. I'm fucked, unless I take 200.00 a day consistently in my shop. That's all I need. It hasn't happened for months. Debt is catching up with me.
So you'll tell me to wind up my business. Okay, off I trot into the labour market, 54, widowed 18 months ago. Qualified for care work, possibly as I've spent most of my life raising children and caring for elderly relatives. Yes, my choice - but also not really. Because I love my family. And I'll have to claim Universal Credit. So I'll be another part of the problem that is a fucked system.
Sorry for the disjointed rant.
Better get my big girl pants on, seize the day and manifest something positive.....
Good luck and solidarity to anyone else struggling to understand this madness.