Sorry bit long. Me and DH have not been on the best of terms the past few months. We are together 15 years. We also have 3 young children, 4 months, 18 months and a 7 year old.
DH had an epiphany after a night out that I don't show him any love or care about him, that I don't support him. I reminded him I've been pregnant and working full time the best part of two years and if there was an issue before why not raise it. We fell out from March to May time on and off. We agreed to make an effort end of May.
On Saturday he made a really horrible comment to me about my appearance (after years of these comments) I was just so angry and grabbed the pram off him. He then said I shoved and hit him on the hand. I apologised to him a few times because if I hurt him on the hand I didn't mean to. He has now decided that we are finished and he wants to separate and won't budge. He said he won't move out of our joint home until I pay him back the money I owe him. Which accrued during my last maternity leave and could take years to pay back.
So now I'm dealing with the silent treatment apart from communicating about the children, he's going out and doing what he wants and I'm stuck at home. He also said during our argument that he can do what he wants because he works and I'm at home so that's my job for now. He's been really horrible and is acting over the top happy with the children.
There is a planned night away this weekend with some friends I have not seen in so long and I was really looking forward to it (think hot tub and wine). I'm just so upset about everything because I'm thinking of the children and he will be an asshole whilst I'm away probably not update me about the children and stuff. He likes to think he always is the moral high ground. However I would love him to do a full night childcare for a change. I worry I might cry after a few drinks but I don't want to go if i can't sort myself out I keep crying. How do I just do it and say fuck him. I'm worried it may rock the boat further.