I am desperate for help, I'd beg for a hysterectomy if I thought I'd actually get one at this point. I've always suffered from long, heavy cycles and they're irregular so I can't plan for them well either. I'm on the implant which doctors tell me should help but don't, they've given me tranexamic acid which does nothing, naproxen doesn't even touch the pain and I constantly feel nauseous, dizzy and achey. All that would be bad enough but on top of that every time I get my period - I turn into the most horrible, nasty, useless person going. I can't think, I have brain fog but my head is so full of things that need doing I feel like it's going to explode, I'm irritable and impatient and either tearful or full of rage but it's unpredictable. I am suicidal and self harmed a few times.
I am on antidepressants anyway as I do suffer in general but it's normally well managed until my period when I implode. I've spoken to family who seem to think I'm overreacting but surely this isn't normal! My doctor just says the implant and tranexamic acid should work and that my antidepressants are a high dose already and work well generally so is reluctant to change them. I'm nowhere near average menopause age and just don't see an end to this misery. I feel like I'm going to lose everything because I'm so horrible to be around - it's exhausting dealing with someone like me but I don't know how to cope.