I can’t decide how daft I’d be to do this.
I got a bit of money (for me) recently (£4k). I have long term severe mental health issues and if I spend that money it’s going to take me a long time to get it back.
I’ve been having health issues for years. I have had hundreds of tests. Have seen four consultants over the last 5 years and have been told it’s almost certainly just anxiety. There is a very slim chance it might be more serious but I’ve been told this is highly unlikely. Doctors have said dozens of times that the fact that every test I’ve had so far is normal, means there’s very likely to be nothing wrong physically.
However, I’ve latched onto the worries. I spend most of my day worried I’m going to die. I don’t do anything, in case I cause symptoms to happen. My consultant told me last summer she was referring me for a scan to just make absolutely certain, and said it was a routine referral so about a 14 month waiting list.
I’ve been told today I’ve still another 8-10 weeks to wait for that scan.
I’ve stopped doing most of my usual activities because I’m so anxious. I’ve been told repeatedly anxiety is the problem. That they can’t hurry up the scan just because I’m anxious.
I can get the ultrasound done on Friday of this week, privately, but it would cost at least £750 in total.
I can’t decide how stupid I’d be to do this. My GP has said they can’t advise, hospital are saying the same that it has to be my decision ‘but if we thought it needed doing this week we’d do it.’
If I spend that money, I won’t get it back, for something that’s more likely to be absolutely nothing at all. The chance is if I get rid of this worry, I’ll find something else or I’ll decide that the scan wasn’t enough and I need another one.
I’d be daft to throw that money away wouldn’t I?