For whatever reason, mine is illness and trauma. Sad is perhaps the wrong word, because I quite enjoy life day to day and lots of the little things, but it feels strange that those years are simply over and gone and there isn't much time. I mean, I hope I have plenty of time left but my family keep dying young and I'm scared I will too.
I beat myself up a lot that other people always seem to manage to build impressive careers despite the challenges of ill health or random awful shit, and I just couldn't manage it. I just scraped along surviving! It means I feel like I've wasted my talents, and trying to slowly figure this out now, but so late...
Can anyone relate to this?