I'm a mum of a toddler, I'm 37, I have a wonderful albeit sometimes difficult partner. I have a successful career. I'm not married, don't own a house, and am in a bit of debt..... but generally I'm ok with these and accept it's part of life. I've struggled with my mental health all my life.... depression, anxiety, low self esteem.... as a result I've always struggled to make and keep friends. I'll be honest, I do need low maintenance friends as I find it hard to fit social time into my busy schedule and I think that coupled with my bad periods of mental health has meant I seem to have lost a lot of friends. My mental health currently is better than it has ever been but it's still a struggle sometimes and I realise I have to learn to live with that and accept that a lot of people just don't/won't ever understand.
So my question is.....
Friendships that I have tried to keep but now seem like are at an end - I've tried, I've messaged, tried to arrange meet ups when I can etc.... only to be blanked, or made to feel like I don't matter, do I accept that my one or 2 friends that do stand by me are are enough and let the others go so as not to damage my MH even more?
I don't really have any family so I'm worried I'll be really lonely, but do I just need to get used to it?