I feel sick at returning to work tomorrow. Basically I’ve been in my job 10 months and from day one it was sink or swim. I’ve never worked in the role before either so I couldn’t even use previous experience.
It’s just all got too much now as every work day I feeling like I’m drowning and it’s messed up my mental health massively. I went to my manager and told him how bad things have got, he then escalated it to his manager.
Three of us had a meeting where I said what I’m struggling with and I gave an example of a project I’d done and how difficult it had been - the senior manager said to me “how didn’t you even realise you were suppose to do that? We could just get any random person off the street outside to do the job the way you’re doing it”
I just feel like he knows I’m suffering and I’m not saying I should get special treatment but I’m trying my hardest with no guidance when I ask and this just felt like a kick when I’m already on the floor.