To think this could be perinatal OCD?

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I’ve had OCD in the past in bursts, like episodes where I have gone so far down a rabbit hole I’ve almost lost touch with reality.

But currently I’m struggling and I seem to be obsessing over whether this is OCD or not. Googling constantly, trawling through old Mumsnet threads to see how my symptoms compare to others’.

I had my son 6 months ago and I have a 2 year old daughter. I’ve started to become “obsessive” again about hygiene, how to make up formula bottles (been FF since birth), contamination of formula, contamination on work surfaces, on towels, only using kitchen roll to dry my hands or wipe any surfaces in the kitchen. Won’t let my DH do things like change dirty nappies so I’m breaking my back changing two lots of nappies constantly. Only I can make the formula up as I’m paranoid about it.

I am on sertraline and have been since I had my daughter when I experienced postnatal depression. I don’t feel depressed this time except I don’t know where I will get the strength to carry on like this with feeling afraid all the time or like I am failing, doing things wrong, not perfect.

I think I need to contact the GP but my DH will probably say my thoughts are normal and not to worry, so that fuels my obsession with whether or not I even have OCD and then I just tell myself I need to learn to cope better. I don’t know if I can trust my own judgement on this?

Speak to the GP they will know

Could be simply a flare up of OCD, doesn’t necessarily have to be perinatal cause. Does certainly sound like OCD though. It’s utterly rubbish to feel that way so definitely speak to GP x

Sending you unmumsnetty hugs OP. I was diagnosed with postnatal OCD and I didn't feel depressed either, I think that put me off seeking help because I only knew about PND. Please go and talk it through with the GP. Hope you feel better soon.

Thank you, I’m definitely going to contact the GP tomorrow. I don’t know if sertraline is the best for OCD as I’m already on the highest dose.

Contact the Gp - sounds like ocd rearing its head and the sooner you seek some help the more chance of a faster recovery! Also, wouldn't it be nice to allow your DH to take on formula and nappies! Think of the long term benefits of seeking treatment