Can anyone help please, I am driving myself nuts!
My boss is a bully and it's a small company with one boss, no HR, no support so there's nothing left for me but to leave. BUT, he pays well, the work itself is OK, it's a good easy commute. So apart from a horrible bully boss who I have to deal with all day every day it's ok. If that even makes sense!
I'm menopausal and have lost a lot of my confidence. I'm feeling the affects in other ways too, overly tired, grumpy, emotional, etc.
My problem and my AIBU is, whenever I get to the interview stage for a new job I start thinking my current job is actually ok and back out. When there is no new job in the running I hate my job again.
I was recently offered a fabulous plum role which was a promotion, a pay uplift, with a nice company with lots of benefits. I accepted the job and withdrew a week later. Massive imposter syndrome, I talked myself out of it completely and ended up back to square one with bully boss.
I now have an interview with another good employer. Great role, good money - but I'm terrified I'll be crap and/or new colleagues will hate me. I'm obviously employable as I am successful with interviews and come with stacks of good experience.
Another factor is I have length of service in my current role and of course I'd be giving that up to be in a probation period.
Can anyone offer any words of advice or wisdom - or has anyone been here? Bully boss is really awful and there is no way of this situation changing, he's sole Director in a very small company with no HR team or support managers.