No point to this post really, although if anyone can maybe give me some stories of hope that would be lovely. To the outside world I'm a strong, capable single mother (and I am). I'm 31 and have two DC, 8 and 4 who only have me as a parent. I adore them and people who know me in real life would be shocked to find out I'm currently crying in bed next to my little boy because I feel so lonely. I've not dated in years and dedicate my life to my babies, but I fantatasise about crime documentaries, a Chinese and belly laughs on the sofa on a Friday night. I want to experience nice sex. I want to be someone's number one. I want to know what it's like to be adored by a man. I want someone who can fix things that I can't in my house. I want to not be the one who is the single mum. I want my children to have a positive male role model. I want someone to take them to the park with me and share the nice moments. I want family days out. I want to roll my eyes and pretend to be irritated by someone's shit jokes. I want a good, strong man. I want to carry another child and get to see the father with his newborn. I want a family. We are already a family, but I want a family with a mum and a dad. I want it all, even the bad stuff, because I've never had any of it. 💔