I tried to leave my long term partner and father of my children last year. I did leave, I moved in with family. He wasn't very kind to me shall we say. I met someone else in that time.
I couldn't afford to leave my partner long term though.. with 2 young children, I gave up full time work after my first child, he wouldn't buy me out of our house.. I can't afford legal advice.. I can't get universal credit help for housing while my name is still on the mortgage, and he won't take me off it. Rock and a hard place.
He said he'd changed, realised what we had with us etc, so I went back. I wanted to try to have the family unit I'd wished for.
But I can't let go of the man I was seeing while we were apart, I've known him years but we only got romantic while we were separated.
He makes me laugh.. like really laugh, in a way my partner never has. He listens, and never gets nasty with me. He is like a best friend. But to be with him properly, would mean a lot of upheaval. Saying goodbye to the family unit. And to be back with my partner, I need to cut him off.
I just don't know what to do.