DH was having a go at me because at 10pm he was getting his gym stuff ready for the next morning and couldn’t find a pair of shorts, ya know.. organised!
Turned into a bit of an argument (we’ll him having a go at me) and I was just smirking and nodding as I was so ready for bed and he was going ape shit about how I don’t do enough round the house and never on top of the washing and other chores even though I only work 2 days a week and at home with DD the rest of the time, and in half terms (for the 2 days he has 2 yo DD whilst I’m at work) he manages to stay on top of everything and run a house perfectly and I told him to be quiet as not too wake DD and he stormed off downstairs.
I sat here a minute and pondered and thought no hang on a minute I’m not taking that. I do all the cooking, washing up, shopping, cleaning, DD bed times the 5 days I’m not at work, DD bath times, finance organising/planning, grass mowing.. whatever, I feel like I do EVERYTHING!! So I went down and said just that and he basically he went onto say that the house is always filthy and nothings ever done and it’s not that hard being at home most of the time. And I went to go back with another point and he shut the door and called me a cunt. I told him that I heard that and he said that I was meant too.
Wow. A cunt?! That was a hard blow. The mother of his child? His wife? I’m normally not easily upset at all but that’s floored me. I’ve literally just not stopped crying. Its just got me doubting everything home management wise. I try my fucking best. His foods always ready to eat as soon as he walks through the door. And yes there is sometimes a wash pile and a bit of mess but who doesn’t have that? Especially with a 2yo. But he’s got me feeling like a failure!
And as for calling me that on purpose. I don’t even want to consider talking to him tomorrow. I’m crushed. I feel sick and if you’re still reading then thank you.