Bit of background... I have had a mild TBI and post concussion syndrome about 9 years ago, which led to a serious breakdown and being prescribed an awful, strong and neurotoxic antipsychotic off label for severe anxiety and insomnia. This resulted in a serious adverse effect to the med and the result was a permanent neurological involuntary movement disorder called tardive dyskinesia that is a bit like Tourette's and Parkinson's disease combined.
So, aside from all that (!), more recently I've been getting weird memory blank episodes, and odd brain 'sensations'.
I was lying in bed the other night and felt very weird, as though my thoughts and brain felt outside of my head. It's so bizarre, like the thoughts and my brain were there but about 3 inches to the left of my head 😳
I've also been getting more cognitive/neuro type symptoms including horrible episodes of total memory blanks, where I feel like i literally can't remember anything about everything I've ever known for a few moments. It's as though I am totally in the moment, living as though an animal might be, in the present moment just responding to what is in front of them. I had no thoughts about what was going on in front of me, where I was, what I wanted to do (so I might think "that's a nice garden" or "I wonder what I can eat for lunch"), but I honestly felt like my whole memory of my entire knowledge had been wiped.
God only knows what any of it is. It might be the head injury, my movement disorder, being near perimenopause, or none of the above. It's scary and horrible though, whatever it is 😳😥