to think that the fear will never go away?

[neverbethesameagain00]

I was diagnosed and treated for cancer 4 years ago and I naively thought that once the treatment was over life would return to normal.
How wrong was I, the fear of recurrence and the fear of appointments doesn't seem to get any easier.
I just wish that I could cope better with it all, I thought four years in I would be use to the appointments and that things would get easier.

Sorry to hear this OP, although I don't have any experience so can't really help, but just wanted to send a virtual hug. Hopefully someone who's been through it will be along to give some helpful advice shortly.

Do you have access to counselling at all, whether through work or through someone like Macmillan?

It sounds an absolutely normal response to me, but one you need to talk through with people who understand exactly where you're coming from.

I was diagnosed with cancer in my mid 20s. I thought I would never be fully happy again because of the fear of recurrence. I was on high alert with intrusive thoughts for three years. It was exhausting. I regret not having counselling as I think that would have helped. Then the fear began to fade as life took over again. It's been two decades now. I have the occasional worry but I can tell you that the fear did lessen very dramatically by about five years post diagnosis. Im happier now that I ever have been. I wish you the best.

I had cancer at 21, I'm 53 now are barely think about it. I'm not sure I've even mentioned it to my partner of 10 years, it gets better