I have my 3 month review today and I’m not sure if that’s why I am in an overly reflective mood. I enjoy the job, well at least I think I enjoy the job – I work on a ward where there isn’t much personal care – you just assist patients who are newly out of surgery, I do lots of cleaning – yes I would say I do enjoy my job. I find it incredibly fulfilling and I am proud to work for the NHS.
What I don’t enjoy is being redeployed for half of my shifts to wards I don’t know where I know no one and get treated like crap, don’t know where anything is and the majority of patients are double incontinent dementia patients– perhaps that’s why I am unsure. I don’t want to leave so soon, I will feel like a failure and I can’t take that. I am not sure if I would be more suited to a different department e.g. surgical, radiography or even at a doctors surgery (have checked and there are currently no vacancies).
I dont like the fact that I don't see my child awake for 2 days of the week (I work 2 long days). I'm just a bit overwhelmed with emotion today I think.
Has anyone ever been in the same situation?
I just needed to vent really. Sorry for posting on AIBU.