Does anyone ever get a sort of blank feeling where your emotions are?

[Whatcouldthisbeplease]

This is what I'm having at the moment.

I watched my mum die a few months ago and I have started having dreams about everything that happened. They aren't distressing dreams, but rather it's like being back in the stress of it.

I'm avoiding sleeping at night because I hate lying awake for ages and then dreaming when I do sleep.

I'm sort of ok much of the time, but then get these stretches of what I can only describe as complete blankness. It is like a calm resignation that the rest of my life will never be properly contented or happy ever again.

I know there are plenty of good things in the world and it can be a wonderful place, just not for me. I kind of feel like I have the opposite of motivation to do anything building a future?

But still am trying to eat nutritious food, do a little exercise, trying to look after myself.

I sleep for ages once I get going without dreams (usually after really exhausted staying up very late) and the only other time I find relief is drinking. But obviously can't do this everyday...

What is this blankness?

Your still grieving. Talk to someone to help you through the trauma.
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You can talk to CRUSE have a look at their website

It sounds like depression or you could be disconnecting.

Reach out to someone for some support xxx

OP please try to be kind to yourself. What you are experiencing is normal. It happens to people all the time. If you can, try to seek therapy and try to keep doing the things that you enjoy.

I have felt like this in times of great distress, I was led to believe it’s a form of disassociation when your head is trying to not engage fully as it can’t cope.

Mine was around bereavements as well, sorry to read about your loss. X