I keep worrying about everything. I keep going over conversations I had today with my boss. I said something very silly which I keep kicking myself about. I feel uneasy most of the time. I feel people look at me and either feel sorry for me or just think I’m crazy. I’m sat here now unable to process my emotions and overeat a lot. I feel lonely but when people go reach out to me I make excuses. I feel slightly sad when I see social media posts about my family and friends living their lives and having fun but when I do go out I feel it’s a wasted evening I could have done something else with. A new thing that’s happened recently I keep muttering under my breath that I wish I was dead. I’m terrified I might say this without realising and someone might hear me!
mice had therapy in past but the therapist is never going to say I think your problem is x,y,z. They just listen and don’t say anything.