My daughter almost died earlier this year. She’s ok now but I felt like I just carried on through a tunnel brushing everything else under the carpet and just focusing on her being better. I didn’t have time to think about anything else.
Now I’ve come crashing into reality and I know I hate my job. I took a big pay cut because I needed to find work quickly at the end of a contract. It’s not in my field and I feel like I’m stuck in a crappy role whilst everyone else is doing great.
Every day I feel worthless and not achieving my full potential. I feel like I’m a crap parent because all my time is spend stressing about my shit job and not focusing on them. Every day feels like I’m wading through treacle and I can’t think straight. I get angry and irritable at DH even though he’s great and helps all he can.
I try spend money on things to cheer myself up but it never works. Then I get angry because I feel my family should be enough especially after everything we’ve been through with DD.
DH says I’m depressed but I don’t know what to do. I just cried. Am I depressed or just stressed?
do you think I’m reasonable to think it’s just stress
or aibu? Am I depressed?