NC for this as I don't want this to be to recognisable if you can guess just shushhh.
Have I lost the plot? I have periods of manic depression episodes, that can send me quite frankly off the plot.
I've been pretty stable for a few years now which I've been super proud about and haven't needed meds.
Something happened a month ago with one of my dc needing a lot of care from going forwards, I've been doing it all.
My partner has tried to step in and help and I've APPARENTLY been stopping him as I feel like I can't trust him. I don't know why, maybe I'm just scared incase something bad happens or I'm just a bit paranoid. I can't explain it.
Anyway so I've been doing it all and not sleeping because I've been so wound up and stressed.
He's gone out a few times with his mates and it hasn't bothered me. Infact it's probably better as he's not in the way.
Today he's planned to go out this evening for drinks and I just totally lost the plot feeling like why does he get to go out AGAIN while I'm sat at home with the dc not having a life of my own, I haven't even managed to go to the hair dressers or speak to my own mum longer than 5 minutes on the phone due to dc.
I've been waiting to speak to him all day about it but we've had visitors and his mum round all day which progressively annoyed me to the point I just started shouting (dc were in their rooms with headphones/music on at this point) at him and went mad. Asking why does he get to go out again while I'm stuck at home with no help, and that he should just go out and do me a favour so he's not in the way with his mother.
She immediately took offence. (She's round here everyday so as you can imagine when there's things you want to speak to your partner about but have to wait for the ladyship to go home can be stressful.)
He got angry with me and said I'm stopping him help with dc, that he was going to do it today but he didn't communicate that with me just expected me to know and that he was going out for one drink and then going to spend the evening with me but I've now ruined that.
His mum left in a angry mood with me no doubt to tell the rest of the family I'm off my meds and being a mental case again. And he's gone out too but said he'll be back when he's back and that it's all my fault for not letting him do things... when he doesn't communicate I've asked him to help in the night before and he doesn't even reply to me so how do I know if he will help or not? And now I've also ruined this evening he had planned with me (wether that's true or not is doubtful as he has lied to me before.)
Am I a mental case? Have I lost the plot again please MNers I need some advice as I can't tell when I'm poorly normally my family tell me but they don't live here.