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My husband never buys new clothes. He's bought 2 new outfits they are the same style but different colours
I've read on heard so many times if your husband starts to change his appearance it could mean an affair.
We aren't intimate we have never really had a good sex life mostly cos of me I've never really had a sex drive . He never used to go out but has gone out with is friends the last two weeks to the pub I know he was there cos we work togther and they were talking about it and one dropped them off.
We got together when he had a girlfriend and I have never trusted him.
I am full of anixety all the time if he's watching TV or working or his phone beeps I'm trying to get attention.
We have a child o don't want to be a part time parent but is they any point in this marriage

Your marriage is dead and buried. You're not intimate, you don't trust him, you therefore can't love him. Get out and give each other your freedom back.

I have no money literally none. We work together I'm new so I'd need to leave I have no where to live what do I do

Absolutely no point to this marriage that I can see.

Isn't the point to raise my child I don't want to have time without her I don't see my parents if I can help it I would have no one when they where with me

We got together when he had a girlfriend and I have never trusted him.

Well that's nothing you can complain about since you were part of the issue.
The rest, well that doesn't sound like a good marriage. And no you don't stay for the child, that normalises an unhealthy and toxic norm to them.

Hang on, slow down a bit.

You’ve never trusted him? Why did you marry him?

how old is your child, is this some postpartum anxiety and lack of sex drive or have you always been very anxious about him watching TV for example?

There’s a lot tied up here, it would be helpful to understand a bit more about how long you have felt like this and what’s made you feel like this now if it’s a recent thing.

We got together when he had a girlfriend and I have never trusted him.

So why did you get married?

No they are 10
I did have pnd terribly and the last ten years I've done shit jobs to cover childcare in the holidays totally lost my career
I think I have realised over time I don't trust him if I ever see him talking to a female I think they'll have an affair

But that's because you did the same and projecting your own actions? Surely you can see that.

I totally see that no ones saying I don't.

I've always felt like this

You need to speak to your GP. This level of anxiety is not normal.