I finally leaped outside of my comfort zone and went for a job in a different dept within where I work at a lower band (nhs) but good hours.
Wasn't successful, I asked what could I have done differently? They said “nothing, you’re perfect for the job and would fit in, but we’ve an internal applicant on a temp contract who got the job”.
Just feel a bit deflated and like it was a waste of my time :(